So last weekend was my birthday and I suppose it has me in a well... not a funk... more like a tantrum but quieter.
See, I do my duty. I wash the dishes and I wash the clothes and I wash the floor and I wash the front porch.
I bite my tongue and I keep my cool (most days).
I pay the bills and I budget the numbers and I make sure everybody has shampoo and the toothpaste they like.
But damn, its a tough job being a grown up and with every passing birthday it becomes clearer and clearer that this is what I have become.
With all the typical stigmas that come with being a wife and a mom and a homeschooler well what am I supposed to do?
So I've been rebelling quietly.
I didn't do housework over the weekend but rather suggested we go fishing (we caught pathetically dinky fish and had a blast).
I've been walking barefoot and around here that means my feet are dirty and I just don't care.
I called Mac Daddy at work and suggested we grill outside for dinner and would he bring home some beer (on a Tuesday). Its no big deal really except that he usually brings the beer and I never ask and the burger I bought to grill wasn't in a big lump with a "family pack" sticker on it. I bought the already seasoned already shaped-like-a-burger ones that cost twice as much and taste twice as good.
I ate marshmallows out of the bag and didn't watch to see how many of them the kids ate.
See this grown up always-play-fair stuff takes a lot of energy. Energy that I think some days I'd rather use to kick the pile of laundry aside (cause you know it will be there tomorrow anyway).
Next up in knitting...
A sweet button up cardi for all the girls...
"See this grown up always-play-fair stuff takes a lot of energy. Energy that I think some days I'd rather use to kick the pile of laundry aside (cause you know it will be there tomorrow anyway)."
AMEN!
Glad to hear that was the gift you gave yourself this weekend. Next time - don't wait a year to do it again.
Posted by: Miss Scarlett | June 09, 2008 at 10:21 PM
Happy Belated Birthday...and the cardi's look wonderful!
Posted by: Theresa/t does wool | June 08, 2008 at 09:50 PM
You sure said it! Posts like this are what makes the blogging world rock mine :-), good stuff!
Posted by: Dannette | June 08, 2008 at 02:58 PM
Happy birthday for last weekend! I suppose by now you are back to being supermum, but I can certainly identify with your 'rebellious' feelings. For me, there's nothing better than not having to cook, and getting to eat someone else's cooking...
Posted by: clarabelle | June 06, 2008 at 05:21 AM
You go, girlfriend! I'm with you all the way! and Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!
Posted by: Chanda | June 06, 2008 at 12:15 AM
I hear you loud and clear, and I think we all understand. Good for you for going fishing instead of working; life is too short. I can't wait to see the cardigan, by the way!
Posted by: Debbie | June 05, 2008 at 08:56 PM
Fishing and marshmallows? Sounds like a decent birthday to me!
Posted by: bezzie | June 05, 2008 at 07:59 PM
Birthdays are for indulging yourself, glad you had the chance to relax and enjoy yourself! Happy B-day :)
Posted by: Kate | June 05, 2008 at 04:45 PM
Happy birthday! Enjoy your rebellion. We all need it from time to time.
Posted by: Dani | June 05, 2008 at 12:01 PM
The full-time mother thing just eats away at a part of your soul, doesn't it? I mean, it feeds another part to kind of offset the loss. But when you're missing the part that got eaten, it's a rough time.
Happy birthday! Have a few more marshmallows. Mwah!
Posted by: elizabeth m | June 05, 2008 at 11:42 AM
I firmly believe that one of the major benefits of being a grown-up is that every so often, you get to decide to NOT behave like one.
And happy belated birthday!
Posted by: trillian42 | June 05, 2008 at 09:49 AM